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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 12:07

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

What can I say to a scammer who thinks he loves me, but I don't want to be scammed?

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I was seconnd youngest,

Have you ever been physically attacked by a demon?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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I had hoped to write a book about this .

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

It was going to be , some day.

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Can you share a picture of your favorite outfit and explain why you love it?

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

As i do to all so called friends.?

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

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My mum and dad in the seventies!

So, i spoilt her more .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

I write beautiful poetry .

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So whats the point in blame.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

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Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

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She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

I waited trembling.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

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My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

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She wouldn,t have been !

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

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And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

All the time i was locked up.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

He knew the spot.

He resisted the act ,that day.

We all went to grammer schools

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Comes on , in middle age.

I couldn’t, believe it.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

But it wasn’t much.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

I have no regrets .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

When she asked me how she looked .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

My life is so biszare .

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Was to survive, this bastard.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Why did i forgive my father ?

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Especially a lifetime of it.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

What did i know ?

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was very sick at this time too.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

This is how, and why children get BPD.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

She was in good health!

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But, we were locked up after school.

She married twice! .

One cannot live in the past .

Im still living with it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

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Would this be the day?

They are buried together, in the same grave..

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

But ive been too sick for many years..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I don,t even have a pension.

We were not on the streets..

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Put me off passion for life!!

I never cut or harmed myself..

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

Ive learnt so much.

Who then, do I blame.?

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I was 9 years of age.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

I think the readers, may guess!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

(And it was in our own minds.)

I was scared of men, in general

I will be 64.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

And i lived it daily.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

I said to her

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

She loved him until the end.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

My family never makes their pension either.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

This is soul school!.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

She found it foreign!.

I could never make a relationship work though!

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)