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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 13:40

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I have no regrets .

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

All the time i was locked up.

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You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I never cut or harmed myself..

Can we see your heels?

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I was seconnd youngest,

Are evolutionists giving evolution a bad name by claiming humans started off as shrews?

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

How much stronger is an average man than an average woman?

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Would this be the day?

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I could never make a relationship work though!

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

Why did my bipolar girlfriend split up with me?

Why did i forgive my father ?

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I told my 13-year-old daughter that she should never start a fight, but has my permission to end it. She got suspended for ending a fight that some other girl picked with her by hitting her then retreating. How do I handle the school’s response?

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Why are Democrats at Q so desperate that they keep taking down my links to comments that prove the residents in Ohio have been filing complaints about the Haitians eating the local wildlife from ponds in the local parks? Election interference

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And i lived it daily.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

How likely is it to make a living out of being a window cleaner in a Nordic country?

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

Who then, do I blame.?

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But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Put me off passion for life!!

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5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

She married twice! .

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

My life is so biszare .

Was to survive, this bastard.

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

(And it was in our own minds.)

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

Im still living with it.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

I think the readers, may guess!

I waited trembling.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

This is soul school!.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

One cannot live in the past .

I don,t even have a pension.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

I write beautiful poetry .

It was going to be , some day.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

So, i spoilt her more .

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

Where the ultimate outsiders.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Ive learnt so much.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

We all went to grammer schools

I was 9 years of age.

She loved him until the end.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

My family never makes their pension either.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I couldn’t, believe it.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She wouldn,t have been !

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

My mum and dad in the seventies!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

Comes on , in middle age.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

They are buried together, in the same grave..

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

I will be 64.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

What did i know ?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She was in good health!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

But, we were locked up after school.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

I said to her

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Especially a lifetime of it.

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

So whats the point in blame.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

But it wasn’t much.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

We were not on the streets..

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

She found it foreign!.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

He knew the spot.

When she asked me how she looked .

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

I was scared of men, in general

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I was very sick at this time too.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!